Happy 25th Birthday Baby

Kamie....

25 years ago I was scared to death!

my baby was in distress and they were starting me early...4 weeks early

now that's not such a big deal...back then....scary!

I was told she might not make it and they said "wait, let her see her baby before we take her away"

everyone in the room stopped...they all looked at me. I remember looking around at each one of them and then my eyes turned to her.....she looked up at me from the incubator and looked at me as if saying "it's going to be ok mommy, let them take me away and make me better so I can be with you later." I will never forget that moment....and to tell you the truth every single time that beautiful little girl looks at me with those huge eyes as if she is saying still "it's going to be ok mommy." She has been my rock, my hero, my "pooh" friend, my snuggle bug, my laughing buddy, my meat eater, my silly face, my big heart, my smile that lights up the dark, my baby.

I love you.....more than you will ever comprehend. I will forever cherish your life and all of the amazing things you have accomplished. And.....I can't wait to see what is in store for you!

Happy Birthday!!!!!

Thanks for making my life complete and my heart whole!

Ups and Downs

Up - Kamie found out today that she is the Stansbury High Drill Instructor

Up - Kasie is the Wasatch High Drill Instructor

Down - Which color do I wear if they both make it to state?

Up - Kasie and Jer may or may not (may) get the house they have always wanted

Down - I can't mention it yet or get excited cause they haven't signed yet

Up - Tomorrow I get to see me on the tv !

Down - Tomorrow I get to see me on the tv.

Up - I got to spend the day with my sweetheart

Down - It wasn't to celebrate his last chemo, he was not well enough so it was postponed

Up - I got to see my handsome grandson today!

Down - He went home.

Up - Stephen had a craving for chocolate!

Down - There is chocolate in my house and I swear it is calling my name.

Up - I get to see my girls, their men and the babies this weekend

Down - they will go home

Up- there have been lots of ups today

Down - there is a down to every up

Older by the minute

Have you ever woke up one day and thought....where did the time go? When did I get old enough to have a son-in-law who is almost 30 not to mention that my baby...MY BABY GIRL is going to turn 25 next week!!! What is going on here? Who is playing this cruel joke?

The last time I remember, which I swear on a cupcake (you know I take my cupcakes seriously) I swear that my little tiny baby girl was looking at me asking me to play Cinderella again (for the 28th time in one afternoon) and I know for a fact that my first born wanted to marry this young dude that thought he could handle the world...not a 29 year old older man! And by the way Kasie, my little honor's english teach....yes I do know that these are run on sentences and break all the rules of grammer! Seriously though, all of you mommy's out there cherish each little scrape, each runny nose, each time out, but most of all...each and every smile cause before you know it...they will be gone and you will be looking at your tired, old face in the mirror and trying to remember each and every moment of your babies lives good and bad. I am so excited to celebrate Jer's and Kamie's birthdays this week. Jer's is today the 23rd and Kamster's is on the 30th! May you always have the sun on your face, desserts in your belly, and my love in your heart!

C words that suck and once again's

So just in case you had any question in your mind....

Cancer Sucks

Chemo Sucks

Clots from Blood Sucks

Everything that starts with a C sucks!

well, ok so chocolate chip cookies don't

well, unless I made them.

Anyway,

today Stephen called the Dr. due to him having fevers AGAIN and having severe pain. Once again, we were instructed to leave immediately

and drive into Huntsman Hospital. Once again, I received an emergency call at work and had to drop everything and leave. (I do have the best boss/friend in the world and staff that I work with that they just see the look on my face while I get the phone call and say "GO" we got it covered!) Once again, we make the trip that our truck knows way too well. Once again he went thru endless tests, pokes, IV's and x-rays. His immune system is low....very low and they are worried that the filter that saved his life 2 weeks ago might be the infected and might be the very thing that is making him very ill. They did not have any room at the inn (every hospital room was filled) and technically it is safer to be at home away from bugs and disease right now so they sent him home. With antibiotics and strict instructions to take his temp and call with reports over the next 2 days. If this does not work, he will be admitted if not there than at the U of U. So Once again, I sit and watch and wait and worry.

Cancer Sucks

Chemo Sucks

Clots from Blood Sucks

Closely Watching Sucks

Continued Waiting Sucks

Constant Worry Sucks

those stupid "C" words

I hate them.

New start for Bright Tomorrows

So here we go...

Kamie decided that we should be posting about our lives, thoughts, disappointments and happiness. We will start by saying...Hello !

We have had a very eventful year this year both good and bad. Guess the most important was watching the Zamora family be sealed together for time and all eternity!

And of course Kaiah's 1st birthday!

and then how cancer has entered our lives again.

But as for today, we are focusing on living, laughing, loving and learning.

Learning to tolerate and hope, loving without limits, laughing til we pee our pants and living the bestest monday possible!

What did you do today?